Friday, July 29, 2005
Yesterday I totaly did not zzz...but with his help hahaha..today I slept till 12 sth..the he is a very best buddies of mine.. he perserve to continue doing the task..even though we had that impossible to mk it that kind of feeling yet we continue to finish the whole thing..he keep continue to acc me and I know he is tired yet he say he can't leave me alone..so nice ya:)I see his patient part then whenever we success we will high five..really maddess..yesterday I really counted as zai..then the others fallen asleep liao..then the who hor.. slp yet produce poo poo sound can't stand him hahaha..maybe yesterday we ate durian and roti prata that caue the effect ba haha..
Today I reached hm at 8am then sleep 4 hours..most pro going to finish it once my works are done..Yesh..my pounch is succeed..I can mk my own pounch..going to spotlight to buy the cloth I like to mk..really did not regret joining hobby craft..
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
Today everything went smoothly in sch except..when I mention the collection of class fund..I jux wanna clarify that..I know some students face financial problem..since I am the treasurer of the class I think is my responsiblities to collect jux a dollar to clear the photocopying debts..That my style when I was appointed to do a task..I jux need cooperation from the minority k:(..
Ever since ernie sat beside me..everything somehow change for the better..or can I say I hv find the solution for my problem but whether effective or not..all I can do is pray ba..like what miss lee said GOd is in control..Today got quite a enjoyable chatting and gossiping time with 2 guys hahaha..they are so nosey at times too nono love looking at girls..hahaha..then when a girl that has average looking look at them they will pose out a ignorance look..Ah yo some guys jux love acting cooollll..eee I jux can't stand it..but still fun at the way they pose..very funny hahaha..
I jux how quite stunt by ernie saying"bee y u look so serious at work"ya recently I tend to be so tense up but hopefully at times go by thing may turn better..I got bk my acc ca result not what I expected but gonna buck up more...
Ning Jia..pls auto sms me by lastest 2 Aug I need ur cooperation and support k..If can't mk it is alrite but at least inform us..but really hoping that we can gather since we had not met up after my birthday celebration..missing u all ..every members:)Reminder payment on the 3 Aug at braddell area time evening ba..tc:P
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Sunday, July 24, 2005
Today I hv enjoyable time in sol2..I hv not attend service quite a long time le ba..about 2 weeks le..I miss the worshipping..and my spiritual family..I mk them worry of me..same for pple who standby me..I sort out my thought,I gonna start afresh..better ba..trying my best..too much thing happened le..but still surviving..hahaha
Today I met up with ernie and her bf ah yo..at the start I feel abit embarass ..actually I should met up with syikin but somehow sth happened so she can't mk..then we took bus 28 to haslinda house.We are late to meet up with nisa and wani so we quickly rush to the viod deck,we are blur too we went to the wrong blk..Overall we still find our way to haslinda hm..her hm really has alot of pple..then jannah yusmah sarina and natahsa have reached earlier than us..Soon linda set up the food everything for us..really my first time eating with hand on..hahaha somehow I learn some malay culture le..Furthermore I am the only chinese there..then I shake alot of pple hand too actually a way of couteosy..bee is very well manner de hahaha...k gonna end here my fav show starting le..bye..
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Today I hv enjoyable time in sol2..I hv not attend service quite a long time le ba..about 2 weeks le..I miss the worshipping..and my spiritual family..I mk them worry of me..same for pple who standby me..I sort out my thought,I gonna start afresh..better ba..trying my best..too much thing happened le..but still surviving..hahaha
Today I met up with ernie and her bf ah yo..at the start I feel abit embarass ..actually I should met up with syikin but somehow sth happened so she can't mk..then we took bus 28 to haslinda house.We are late to meet up with nisa and wani so we quickly rush to the viod deck,we are blur too we went to the wrong blk..Overall we still find our way to haslinda hm..her hm really has alot of pple..then jannah yusmah sarina and natahsa have reached earlier than us..Soon linda set up the food everything for us..really my first time eating with hand on..hahaha somehow I learn some malay culture le..Furthermore I am the only chinese there..then I shake alot of pple hand too actually a way of couteosy..bee is very well manner de hahaha...k gonna end here my fav show starting le..bye..
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Today I hv enjoyable time in sol2..I hv not attend service quite a long time le ba..about 2 weeks le..I miss the worshipping..and my spiritual family..I mk them worry of me..same for pple who standby me..I sort out my thought,I gonna start afresh..better ba..trying my best..too much thing happened le..but still surviving..hahaha
Today I met up with ernie and her bf ah yo..at the start I feel abit embarass ..actually I should met up with syikin but somehow sth happened so she can't mk..then we took bus 28 to haslinda house.We are late to meet up with nisa and wani so we quickly rush to the viod deck,we are blur too we went to the wrong blk..Overall we still find our way to haslinda hm..her hm really has alot of pple..then jannah yusmah sarina and natahsa have reached earlier than us..Soon linda set up the food everything for us..really my first time eating with hand on..hahaha somehow I learn some malay culture le..Furthermore I am the only chinese there..then I shake alot of pple hand too actually a way of couteosy..bee is very well manner de hahaha...k gonna end here my fav show starting le..bye..
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Friday, July 22, 2005
todaY very ap toward nanny...feeling so bad..yet she did not blame me..NannY I'm sorrY..I think when I am extreme stress I will be very a.p so nowadays I dare not speak le..anyway I thank GOD giving me understanding friends who will standby me when I need them..
Today after acc my ma straight after sch till 4pm..then I rest for half an hour I quickly dress up to meet up with rachel,nanny n xin ma..today xin ma very very blur like tong tong..she miss her stops..we actually meeting up to check the bbq food price..we wanna give it the best..hopefully all the members in ning jia can mk it..gonna catch up with u all ..pple like chuan,ru peng,zhen and ken not yet reply me..my confirm list now is xin ma nanny rachel angie mei ying and hui ..I pray I pray:)the actual celebration on 6 aug.. payment is $8 now..might hv adjustment due to the amt of food...
Today my second acc test since better cause I understand the format of goodwill yet..I did badly I can't balance my acc..so freaking disturbed with leon and melvin I dun understand y they dun want to buy liquid paper.. very ex meh... Hey warning pls go and buy hor..I very kind enough liao mine gonna used up le..then the promises that both of u have given me is all fake..I hate pple nv keep promises de..I hate it:(ah ya so freaking piss off... I am so disappointed with myself once the acc paper is done..awwww...I hate everything everything..I will nv go any business course le..hopeless meaningless.. arghhh...I hate everything...
I more angry with the only person left in class so abcd dun want to pay up class fund..jux $4 only furthermore he can dun eat so much what..teacher even wrote to his mother for the payment yet I really dun get it y can't he jux pay?mk me still owed the photocopying maching aunty money..I tried to do my part give him a note instead of talking to him..hey what the shit u want..dun force me to ask the class advisor to get the money from u..dun force me to that state I hv enough of that..even ur family background might be what so ever..can't u pay slowly..u are jux selfish totally selfish..the whole class pay except u..and u only know how to tk advantage of others..u are#$%@..U are the worst man not man a boy not boy I dun noe I NV EVER SEE...
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
Today I jux finish my acc test on partnership dun really did well..I think partly of my carelessness..I still got a goodwill acc test tomolo..I not yet started my revision and also no mood.. but quite addicted to this story..very touching http://www.i-believe-you.com worth reading it.. somehow I feel that this author stil very gd in writing this story as he really express well how each characters feel.. I accidentally read Melissa blog and found it.. I read till chapter 10 le somehow I know the what the story is about..but the ending I guessing ...:)
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Today I tk the least nap.. then I clean up the living room and my own room..mopping and sweeping.. then when I am out of job I can go be maid le..:P
Sometime I feel that I am not so worthy for pple to sacrifice for me.. because I am a girl who carry alot of burden..a normal average girl without look figure talent and knowledge..no pt getting hurt unnecessary..then I heard alot of promises pple hv given me before yet nv being fulfil..Sometime I do tk those promises seriously.. I also dislike liar..This semester seem alot more thinggy to work on and study..hopefully I am able to cope..
Life now is so simple and peaceful than before yet there fear not yet unloaded.. Maybe she right I am jux running away from the problem..All I want is rest and peace ..nothing else but the problem still floating at the surface.. I really don't know what to do.. she say my feeling also has harden ..if continue on I might really feel something after all..what should I do..
Tomorrow and fri acc class test.. ah ya.. how can I do it but I not yet start my revision.. no confidence but I hv to do it .. or else Mrs wee will say we need to buck up etc le..
Am I happy right now?I also dun noe... maybe the only happiness I can achieve is when the problem that surface is solve ba:Pand I achieve my DREAM...
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Monday, July 18, 2005
Hi Ning Jia Ladies and gentleman
wow .. long time no see ya.. coming up event is a bbq birthday celebration for my xin ma..who is going 19 le ya..
The event will be 6 Aug saturday.. time not yet confirm but most pro late afternoonCollection of money will be done by me bh..and is on 3 Aug..$8 each which include bkingpit food and beverage..
For my side I believe rachel,wanni,angie,birthday girl n me confirm attending
Pls reply me b4 the collection of money whether u all attending so I can mk preparationlikewise everything can be done well instead of providing a last min task.
If u are unable to pass me the money on 3 Aug pls hand it to pple that are coming on the 3AugThe collection venue most probably braddell evening time.
Hope to see u all..Miss ya..hehehe..But if bring ur bf or gf along also no pro jux inform me:P
From
bh
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
I am so touch..by the love and concern u all hv given me.. I am so blessed and overwhelming with it..Pple who know what I had go thru.. Thank.. somehow my spiritual ma got mention that when a person heart is harden he /she might not feel anything le.. ha.. I almost approaching that stage yet I believe GOD grace..Today I heard GOD somehow spoke to me "the day will come de and dun worry"yesterday I pray b4 I went to bed then this morning I attend SOL2 then somehow the words are repeated..I believe in Him and not going to doubt..Amen !
I like pastor Jo preaching today hehehe..so relax..guess what the topic?Holy spirit again..very anointing.. then the class got drag abit yet is really worthwhile..
Last Pple I am sorry I want to repent..what I hv did and words that out of my mouth hv hurt I ask for forgiveness..and the m.i.a I hv given..hahaha..I am stand bk to the ground again..fell yet there always u Pple to carry me up and once again brighten my life..Thank ..
I always remember the footprint story at the beach..and I hv that card given to me by yi yi mei mei..One day I realize that the beach not having 2 pairs of footprint yet 1 set that will be GOD carrying me on him le..Amen!Today worship songs really mk me so touch and I meant every word I sang..
I planing to fast.. ah yo..I love eating can I mk it?I am going to pray for salvation for my loves 1...hehehe..must pray for me:)
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
Today I jux joined sch hobby craft hahaha..learning to sew things like pouch and bag..Today my first lesson I really mk alot of faults at the start..while nisa can sew very well..overall still very thankful for the help that ting wei had given me..Anyway is a learning process ba..
Then today Mrs wee let us try up goodwill acc qn then we hv to finish it up individually and not allow to ask pple for help.. The first question I was crop up but the second qn I finally manage to solve it by myself.. I like this semester modules somehow quite interesting and challenging compared to the first semester..
Now learning tax I realize that many things in singapore has to be taxed and likewise there penalty for late payment or punishment if u intend to cheat...Even though days in sch is not that exciting yet I tend to talk more to melvin and leon le.. usually in the second semester we dun really get to chat much.. overall they are quite fun to joke with at times..but I will give them a dumb times too hahaha..
But I like the job as a treasurer cause can help up the class.. yet at times pple are not so cooperative when they were asked to mk payment..very a.p..today luckily I learn to control myself to deal with such pple ba:pI can't understand y they are not mature to think..I am not at the advantage to use their money or enjoying myself with those money.. Actually not all are uncooperative only CERTAIN.. Thank GOD.. I really appreciate those who pay on time..I really wanna laugh out when sarina ask me to collect $1 for teacher day celebration..my class even got pple mention discount.. or say can pay 85 cents?Faint...
Nanny and zheng I am sorry..I been so a.p..but I really so thankful that u 2 hv been so understanding..I should not do that but.. I can't control .. after a stormy period yet the days not over then I end up having a very bad stomachache which start from midnight till 4am..and I slept jux 2 hours like that..I almost scare my ma off then she almost send me to hospital..Thank GOD i am fine le.. maybe like what I usually say I am too tired I jux need some rest ba..:)
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Friday, July 08, 2005
hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye
ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears
zai che chuang wai mian pai hui shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity
ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
Your position and mine is separated by tears
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
*Chorus wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret
wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness
xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Today rachel I went to united square to find meiling.. she still like before so adorable and friendly..I know her ever since from sec sch..wanna meet her up with liling etc.. long time nv see them liao..
Then rachel and I went to Toa payoh to meet up with Hui zai ..soon meiying come along.. so much to chat and catch up..ah ya hui zai no more studying in bishan le.. but at tampines..Bishan lost a very cute student counsellor..hopefully tampines will accept him as a counsellor and may God bless him by gaining more fav from pple at the new environment..
Today we hv great feast sia.. we ate alot of thinggys at lor4 we ordered popiah,wu xiang,fried hokkien mee,porridge n yong tau fu.. hahahaha.. lastly dessert like ice jelly,qing cheng and 2 bowl of watermelon and honey sago..oh no ate so much still can't get to bed then tomolo start at 8am...
Haiz wanna watch initial d with nanny they all but they can't mk it.. cause sch work and part time job held them up..but I belive GOD grace .. I may borrow from mel..Then today I dress up not that bad bah.. I think better than my casual dressing.. is time for me to change my dressing hahaha.. doll up abit bah.. but still lazy to put on mk up..I scare my face will get destory I prefer natural beauty kekeke..
I must exercise exercise having big big tummy and fat fat le.. oh nono... gonna slp ..:PYup pray that GOD bless zheng a stable job so he won't be soooo free and can complete his studies soon..amen..:)
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
Today early in the morning I met up with dear to tk our o'level cert.. the security there very strict and keep checking us..then we pass several building still must use our ic to exchange for a visitor pass..Finally I gotta my greenish cert.. so happy..yet a d7 math kekeke really hopeless..In the past wanna pass it with a C6 and bring my cert to miss leow..this teacher meant alot to me.. but lost contact le..But I will go find her de:P
Then today I keep helping my ma alot of household thinggys..haiz..she like overwork and will not be able to tk it.. so I help some chores like iron sch u..then sweep n mop my rm then late at nite acc her to toa payoh to buy some household thinggys.. to stock up ..my house now not empty already..That man somehow very useless at times..dun even want to drive his wife to buy those things which are quite bulky thank GOD I am fit and got strength..guessing y I am not born to be a guy hahaha then my bro be mei mei ..who know how to eat..:p
Then my mum told me about my aunt who now age 35 still can't get marry..who got uncle around that age or wanna hv a family.. can approach me..Many pple searching for her a husband for this poor aunt..her look average but got figure can do housework etc.. further details pls tag me..whoever can get her husband my grandma will give BIG ANg bao hehehehe..my grandma will be so grateful hahaha...
Now gonna learn to release certain saddness and move on to the next stage.. with GOD grace gonna mk it.. I must or else like what dear said the trials will be bk again and again..dear pray for me..:p feel free to tag meya..help me look up for mp4 hehehe.. wanna live along with music..so I will not be bored
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