Saturday, April 30, 2005

Today ar.. I overslept..I woke up at 11.30am then I realize oh.. I almost late to meet dear.. wahaha..Thank GOD..she is very understanding.. I am too tired le..Yesterday Lucky zheng acc me tk dinner then come my house to fix some of my It problem.. at my bus journey I almost starving to faint so blessed to reach the destination pretty soon..Wow.. my first time consolidate people ..I met this girl named Charlene..very sweet looking..Yesterday sermon is on disappointment..I think she needed blessing therefore she secretly raise up her hand to ask blessing from pastor..She juz like me in the past.. The she was invited to the consolidation room ..to tk down her particular then I prayed a short pray for her..wow I am so anxious..then today have to give her a call..Ah yo..I don't know what to ask ..Later must ask my Ah ma..wahaha..Hopefully I don't sound so terrible..WOW..dear dear coming over my house now..then we go out to chill..

I hope today will be a pleasant day for us.. I have alot to catch up with her..She my best best sister..I keep remember what pastor saying to us yesterday that phrase"I must hang on ,cause he is still hanging on for me"He is great amen.. This miserable week had caused so much saddness and mess in my life but I must always tell myself that a growing process.. I still had to continue looking positive in life and live to the fullest..Praise GOD I hv signed up for encounter that will be held at NUS..At the siging up counter I saw so many brothers and sisters..hopefully I get to know pple there .. wo are friendly wahaha..So..zHeng don't worry juz leave it to Him..hehehe..

Missing Ning Jia ladies too..Don't know how are they been now.. I know rachel wanna meet out on mon ..but..see how.. Yup.. gonna bath..soooo gonna stop here..

Friday, April 29, 2005

Really ..today I am like tigeress anytime can eat pple up.. I am so A.P.. really I also cannot control.. I actually don't want to attend I.T lesson.. Haiz..gonna hand in sth therefore had to turn up..

Today during I.T lesson I was serving net trying to find information for my I.T project actually I have certain files at home but cannot bring along because the files too big already..So I brought along a diskette then the dumb diskette keep giving me problem asking me to format..I tried several times still cannot do it.. I am so irritated.. Then the Mr Lu came over to my side asking me hv u started ur It project..obviously I am searching the information again..I lost the information and I am frantically searching for it.Furthermore my face show an expression"BEWARE DON'T DISTURB OR U ARE DEAD"then he ask again hv u prepared my tears can't be control anymore then like tap being turned on.. then he saw it..Later on he came over to my side again..then he sat beside me.. hv u started ur project.. Wow I am piss off..Fire.. I cried and said to him"Why others thumbdrive could be found but not mine?"then I said again"Why can't I search that class?"he kept quiet.. He know my volcano had erupted. Wow the class saw what had happened.. I did not show any respect to him at all..Likewise ah zheng told me he is showing concern etc.. But I felt that he also felt sad for me bah..Too bad..That Miss Oh..
I had my dumb dad temper..at least I don't throw my tantrum unnecessary.. I at least more reasonable than him.I really don't understand Y.. Recently, while on the way to sch..the bus journey I found Nokia 8250 I am able to return to the bus uncle as I know the feeling of losing things are very terrible but y can't that person return me the thumbdrive??Why God why??Y I am able to do it.. really that moment I am so freak off ..But I end up had to accept the fact..the reality that the things could not be found back again..cannot le..no more le..

I also almost cat fight with ah Lim..who ask him give me the dumb face as I talk to Bra and zheng with A.P.Not I wanted .. I really extremely freak off.. Piss off he not happy is his problem.But I believe zheng and bra know how I feel.. I at least explain to them and they know.Even mel and Is know how badly I had felt.. really messy in my life..

Early in the morning xin ma also had noticed sth wrong with me liao.. I am a person that don't hid my feeling.. Not like others who are so fake.. yup I am petty cause of irritating pple who caused it..Yet they realized their fault yet because of pride don't apologise.. Extremely PMS..ABCD!!!

Thank GOD .. I am bk to track again..I fallen with hurts and wounds but I had slowly recovered.. I thank my friends & buddies that I had blessed with..Like mel,zheng.bra,Is,Dear,Xin ma,angie dear,Jill,etc... really I am packing up those feelings to move on... That life bah...
I hope my project can be done well..now alot to edit.. I still so PISSSSS OFFF...ARH....

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Today I am still quite bother by the thumbdrive thing.. trying to let go.. I am a very stubborn person wahaha.. Today I really very mad.. off my contact from the world..Ah Lim very irritating even after sch still provoke me.. Wei me and Bra is purely friend and Buddy .. He is close to me as a bro and sis..Ever since cOry dar left me..she got instruct him to tk care of me..that all.. wahaha .. u jealous that I got pple to tk care of me u dun hv ar.. Anyway u are also quite popular among track and field people ma..then when I am troubled he will advice me as a bro that all..U ar.. full of rubbish.. Saying my expression change when I see him .......ah Ya u really dun anyhow say..if u PMS also dun irritate me today..I am already quite piss off and stress up..Nowadays so many things happened.. But I still really trying to live to the fullest for each day...But luckily I am not that petty .. dumb ah lim...keep provoke and irritate me..mk ur life fun in sch ar..:pstill ate so much burger at the nite market wait u become burger..dumb..hump..

Today feeling better..trying not to think so much..I really crazy prefer to keep myself alone in the room..hahaha thank Jannah for letting me that Korea movie "My Little Bride"

The Guy is older than the girl..really much older then they were forced to get marry by their grandfather..At first the girl don't treasure that guy but the guy actually did for her alot of things to touch her.. They had known each other when they were very young.. very sweet and funny.Likewise the girl is very cute and sweet looking..The guy also not bad wor..worth watching..In the end they had a very happy ending...

But I guess this is unreal in this world and this is jux a korea drama :p No more being so navie to wish for such relationship wahaha..Every girl will hope to has a fairy tale kind of relationship..but that is not the realistic kind of thinking..I think so.. bah.. wahaha..

Haiz.. worry for my exam so slag.. my learning process is extremely slow..I think no hope to further study liao.. But I pray bah..I pray....if no choice I hv to enter the society liao.. So lousy in so many things..but trying hard to be pessimistic..

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

I feel so bad..I feel terrible..I lost ah zheng thumbdrive at the computer lab.. My project was inside..But Thank God this mishap did not cause much problems cause ah zheng got back up for my project liao..AH zheng sorry I did not meant to hurt u... with my words.. I did not know that phrase..I am a person when I lost sth I will grief over it.. I very dumb yet I think is ur thing is my fault for not taking care since u put the trust in me..I am a person not gd in words..especially I did not know that the things I spoke to u can ...sorry.

We had search the class to find..the school really did not help us much.. we wanted to search the class but was not allow..haiz.. this school is really dumb.But also due to my carelessness..Somemore today did not get to help u much in ur project.. worst u want me to rest u loithering outside my neighbourhood.. Ah yo let my ma saw u.. I am feel more bad.. Y u so ... I am really very lousy buddy..not worth to be a gd one..

Haiz.. then Ms Low suggested that I go for morning assembly to appeal to the school to return the thumbdrive..I know this might be very dumb and shameful yet I really willing to do this..But I know if I go u will defintely very angry.. then we had a promise..Haiz..I Don't know how..Today almost lost my wallet too..Lucky u tk notice of it..today I am extremely blur sotong.. I am a burden to pple too.. I hated myself today..Actually at times I really tk things too hard that I might not be able to release..I need times bah...Sometimes I really thank God u are still here with me ever since Cory dar had left..Even Miss chong notice I mix with u all more often..Most pro is that u all are really fun to get with bah........But bringing this dumb girl along.. I also thank God bra kept his promise for not leaving this campus..

Poor bra having trouble today..Stand firm I believe ur sincerity will be able......I know u can..God will standby u..Jia you..I can't help much yet..I can jux lend u my listening ears..I can advice at times but I believe u know what u want then the more u shld go and achieve get it???Go!Go!Go!DON'T REGRET..I always dun treasure till I lost the things then I will regret and grief...

Monday, April 25, 2005

Today ah zheng help me carry 6 bottles of aloe vera facial soap wor from Tanjong Pagar.. Poor zheng..sounded like I bully him wahahaha..but this helpful and kind-hearted man help me without grumble wor.. Today thank for changing for me this nice initial D template I luv it so much cause I am pUre 100 percent Jay Fan..Thank Melvin for the lastest information..Yup.. all the Jay fan pls visit website:www.initialDthemovie.com.Actaully Jay is very talent de wor..Pls show ur support..

Today I went to Thomson plaza to search for miss eng birthday gift.. I hope she will like it .. the blue hair clip..

CorY dAr always stand strong..I always believe even we can't see Him or feel His presence yet God is so real.. slowly experience his luv bah.. then u will know what I meant.. But Gonna tell U me Bee Misses CorY dar wahaha..hey the who dun abcd.. wahahaha..

God bless my bro ah Lim too..Even at times PMs WAHAHAHA..he is a very nice man..really I remember me this blur queen forget to bring money to recess he actually wanna lend me de wor..God bless him with the peace and the wisdom to solve his problem in jesus name amen.

Going for encounter the second times..yeah......

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Today morning I received a very bad news from my bro cazper his grandpa pass away..the funeral at bukit purmei..I am well prepare to go there if he needed help..so today I nv turned up for service..but I guess he is too sad to sms me or what.. he did not mention that he needed my help.. hopefully everything is alrite... I really felt sad for him..But I believe his grandpa now is with Heavenly daddy..everything will be fun and peaceful up there de..amen..

I did not attend a funeral before so I met ah zheng hehehe..in case he called then he can accompany me there.. I don't even know what todo..ah zheng told me to dress up either black or white. Yet my ma said must give white packet..But I am so young.. like not nice.. don't know .ended up I did not go yet sitting with ah zheng at BK solving qn8 accounting..solve till so fed up.. then we went orchard to hv our dinner.. we also walk walk..I am searching frantically for a gift..I needed before tuesday..GOD pls bless me !wahaha..I ended up gotten a nice ear ring for myself..so HAPPY.. I like ear rings and accesories.. I like to chose and look..quite fussy too..PooR ah zheng had to acc me.. I even yawn several times..I can tell u I am sleeping addict..Is there such counselling rm for me???wahahaha..while during the journey bk hm..we are separated..then suddenly there an empty seat .. mr alert quickly snatches the seat wahaha the man looked quite piss off..yet mr alert don't care.. extremely diao than me..

Yup early noon we also watched the infection.. K the show not so nice cause too disgusting and I almost lost my appeitite I can compare it with samara..I think japanese horror movie that sound effect and story is more mysterious than the caucasian .. but I still give mr alert face I at least took my dinner.. wahaha I am a visual person so whatever I saw I will hv some images in my mind de.. But thank God I don't remember much now but thought of sleeping on my bed...

Friday, April 22, 2005

Today as usual after I dismissed from sch I went ah zheng hm to do project, I do until very sleepy.. I will yawn several times..ended up this gd man edit for me wahahaha.. he brought alot of snacks up to his house.. wow we seem to hv picnic furthermore his hm downstair got nite market..we ate alot of junk stuff.. ah zheng we gonna exercise wahaha.. later on I fell asleep..quite shok got air-con then music as if hotel.. then in front of the bed got big television..I tell u ..he is extremely fortunate..while I sleeping he went downstair to find teo..wow long time nv see teo.. when I saw him I jux can't control laughing.. we talk all crappy things..

Then we went kovan to hv our dinner..we eaten porridge..Is a shop specially selling porridge..we ordered pork chop,egg,sambal kind of prawn paste then a clay pot of salted vegetable.. this meal is simple yet cost 3 of us $11.20..wahahaha but still very enjoyable.. Is a great time gather together..worst after dinner we went to eat bean curd also quite famous.. Later on I took 163 hm.. I really getting worst if I did not took my nap I look as if a drug addict.. my face turned pale.. yup when going bk to seng kang got 1 dumb uncle keep looking at me..then ah zheng and teo keep teasing me..mk me feel so .....ah yoyo the uncle dare to touch a hair of me I will slap him man wahahaha.. cannot stand man who are so pervert....

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Yesterday I used my mouth as a weapon to kill victims Bra and aH zheng..I remembered is because of the work we needed to hand in to Miss Chong.. The things happened this way.. I saw Miss Chong early in the morning I am so surprised.. then she asked me how come the class did not hand in the qn4&5.I remembered is trying out yet she wanted us to hand in..or I had heard wrongly the previous fri.Likewise IQC had handed in..I started to panic.. Then straight after the assembly I quickly inform the class to hand in after the it period.At first everyone seem hack care till I really get piss off..things start to work..Then I said to them the importance of handing up the work to prevent scolding, furthermore on last fri we had get lecture..Then Bra asked me to relax etc then ask me not to put words on my mouth saying Miss Chong is piss off..but the fact she is.. Is like I can see early in the morning..he could be right too to prevent further misunderstanding between the class and her..however I really getting more mad cause the situation not getting better.. when we start to go in to the it lab.. then even the class did not blame me but I don't feel any better if the job is not done properly..

I blow out.. I really shouted at him.. But I rememebered I ask him and ah zheng to leave me alone first.. Haiz..but this afternoon he said if he would not jux leave me alone like this is like bu jiang yi qi truthfully we are frenz after all..but I know I will blow off that why I ask them go first then I went in to the toilet to calm myself instead they waited outside.. there are miscommunication bah..yesterday I am quite stress.. Then later on at the mid of acc bra and I started to talk..he told me he actually thought of shouting bk to me too..cause he also so agitiated by me.. Worst till ah zheng also get crticise by me.. I am so angry from it lessons until acc..even Mr sim thought he not teaching well or what.. that y my face like charcoal etc.. before he left the class he even say he will teach me on the cheque things again... But thing start to get bk once bra and I started to talk..

Then after school.. Ah lim provoke me too..he said I shld not shout at Bra etc..but when a person is freaking angry surely out of mind already.. then I almost took ah zheng as my sand bag..Ah zheng said to me a philiosophy" when a person had killed the person then he/she will realized they had mk a mistake and started to regret.".Frankly speaking I had regret .. I feeling so bad.. I did not meant to get so piss off I jux want the work to be handed in that all furthermore the stress of not able to cope with non organisation acc and the preparation of bc project etc.. really mk me to stress up..Thank God everything slowly had cleared.. But I really very blessed with ah zheng and bra.. "I AM SORRY"really I did not meant to hurt you all.. ah lim u are right at times yet u provoke me alot u know espec yesterday..Luckily ah zheng around or else things get worst I believe .. I am not anyhow throwing my cool is jux that I am really piss off.. but I hope u don't put words anyhow without looking at the situation too.bla.. but at times u are really fun to mix with ya.. Finally a storm had over..BRA & AH zheng yesterday I wanted to said sorry to u all thru my blog but everything is delete .. but I really hope u all understand how I feel and i really not anyhow throwing my tantrum k.Bra & zheng at most when u all are angry I be the sand bag ya.. tk turn wahahaha

Today my bc project had finally get over,there survivors and pple had to redo everything.. luckily I had able to present well yet not my fluency in my language.. I think I am more like a foreigner than singaporean today my english which I spoken is all rojak espec when I am anxious.. I am blessed hehehe..I will thank AH zheng again for edit my slides till 2am sth..thank owed u watermelon with milk wahahaha..

Wanna meet out with nanny they all missing them alot yet because of the workload etc.. I had to cancelled..furthermore exam approaching.. I really so tired and scared.. hopefully can mk it.. i jux had the feeling not able to score..then my it project still on processing .. due 29 april..jux too much today...NANNY AND XIN MA I missing 2 of u..u all is like bra with bao and moses.. Hopefully I will control my cool again...

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Today Gonna rush out my bc project if not gonna be salted fish...hahahha Exam coming starting from 16 to 25..actually can end early but is the Bf fault..drag so long..but good so that everyone can be well prepare.. cOry dar sounded bored in poly..Must jia you..remember to study hard.. I always remembered what u said to me in ur blog de.. hahahha lao ma is doing the food project hopefully she and her grp will scored.. Nanny as usual selling fish ball sea weed chicken etc.. If I am at the staff I confirm mk the stalll lose money.. cause the food will be eaten or distributed out...

Today Miss chong on course again...I am wondering how she react when she saw the incomplete work???Gonna killed us or give up hope on us???My dearest bro going fatter each day..hahahha.. I am so scare that I gonna control my diet too.. Today outside co-shop there students setting up rows of bread..pastries and peach tarts.. hahaha I heard my ma boiled bitter gourd tea to cleanse my bro oily stomach...

wahahha..better dun laugh too much or else I will become the victim.. kk.. gonna stop here to search for my amino and whatever acids...Yup..abit missing my cYn dear and angie dar..hoping jimmy treating her well..if not I bash Jimmy up hahahha :p

Monday, April 18, 2005

Today ..Miss chOng nv come to sch..She went on course..She assigned us to do bar trading acc..Ended up the whole class is searching frantically for the answer.. I also .. I did half way.. then today bra verY verY NaGgy hahahaha.. and extremely hyper active.. hoping today will be a pleasant day for him.. God bless him..

Ah ZhenG today fast hahaha.. Bra and I are so hungry..We had no eaten from morning till 11am..we quickly asked Mr liu to allow us to go canteen.. because we cannot tk it le.. Today canteen are full of hungrY Human.. there and almost everywhere got queue..hahaha I dun noe how to spell queue then aInt my shI fu help me up.. I got muy dearest paL mEl sitting beside me..she eaten one snicker..I see the way she eat my mouth almost drip..hahaha.. I luv chocolate too but certain brand..

I had a foul mouth cursing Ah zheng saying he gonna prepare a will since he smoked 15 sticks or more..There a article on net saying smoking more then 15 sticks a day can cause development of pustular psoriatic lesions.

Smokers beware! Each cigarette you smoke will take 11 minutes off your life, according to new
study in the British Medical Journal.
Dr. Mary Shaw and colleagues from the University of Bristol in England based their findings on data from a survey of British households. They calculated that the typical male smoker "will consume a total of 311,688 cigarettes" from age 17 until death at age 71.

The report concludes that, by eliminating a full carton of cigarettes, a smoker would gain an extra day and a half of life – that’s enough time to fly around the world, go to the theatre, have a candle-lit meal and enjoy a romantic night away.

So ppLe OUT there smoking rite.. can shorten life span furthermore I believe habit can be changed or improve..same like if u like someone will u tried ur best to win his or her heart?The same logic..So Jia You...

hahaha..today called out to NannY who set up a stall at the cobra garden..she seem very busy..We must go there to patronise her stall.. I saw her classmate william etc seem so free except her trying her best to sell all the food to gain earning.. Ma u starving or money not enough WAHAHA.. my Leg so cRamp rite now..now waiting for class to end.. I want to go hm sleep.. eee the dUmb Bra putting perfume..so girlish..gonna puKe

Sunday, April 17, 2005

Hi Ladies and gentlemen..want to be mei mei???Especially for ur eye..Sleeping late or having puffiness??

First Steps, Pour boiling water over 2 organic chamomile tea bag /Green tea Bag from(Cleo Mag). Allow the tea bags to cool and then chill them in the reffrigerator and, when ready to use, squeeze out the excess water, lie down, and place them over the eyes relax for 15 min.

I tried .. my eye surface turned smooth then the tiredness reduce abit.. today I ar.. got studied with pAStor Kam hahaha.. then he brought along so many tibits to picnic..then my hm don't hv drinks then my ma go buy for his sake.. feeling honour??? When bra came even better that time ..he had a great time at dinner table.. wahahaha.. we hv spent several hours on juz 1 qn.. We studied the solution till jaw almost drop then espec me keep yawning hahaha..

Today my parent quarrelled actually feel quite distracted yet..thank Pastor Kam accompanying me then my corY dar.. We went to watson to find her.. hey she look pretty .. espec with mk up on .. Hehehe c0rY dar ma..hahha then we tried various type of cream lotion and serum I think..

I think the silk pro cleanser not bad really remove dirt.. then tonight gonna tried olAy mask hahahha.. mei mei.. I tried neutrogena..the effect not bad too..but left 1 piece.. gonna save up for mask wahahaha.. worst come to worst eat lesser ya.. I can de.. u all dun laugh ..

Saturday, April 16, 2005

I got hard feeling at times.. today feeling so troubled..Thank Zheng for chatting with me ..SorrY to disturb.. I hv alot of strUggle today.. Frankly speakIng I hv aLot of doubts deeply in my heart.. I am quite troubled by studies & family today..

Hahaha.. Let me tell u all a story ..A girl slang in church.. slang is like holy spirit fall a upon a girl.. only pple who trust in the Lord and hv strong faith then can feel ba..this.There times I saw pple being touch by pastor may slang too.. sometime is so strong.. Holy spirit is God too .. is very pure de wor...

Hahaha this girl fall backward and lie onto a guy slipper.. the guy was so shocked.. hahaha ..some more jux accepted christ then end up seeing such scene...Actually the pastor preached asking who wanted to renew their walk with GOD.. This girl quickly went for it..since her cell leader say is a blessing .. She went there and knee down on the altar,her close pal prayed for her.. wow I saw her tears dripping like open tap but without wipping sound or what is jux tears.. I think God is doing some ministries in her heart ba.. I saw her ready to get bk to her seat to grab her thing to go home..But her spiritual ma said that she wanna pray for her.. she actually want to knee down but the surrounding is full of pple..so she decided to stand.. guess what when the spiritual ma suddenly put her hand on her head.. she slang hahaha.. her eye juz hardly open.. I saw her quite tense up , but tears slowly come out for her eyes..Is she too emotional?Or hv several flashes in her mind?The saddness soon came to the end..U know what she the only 1 who slang..

This girl shame shame .. but I heard she felt much better.. really better..She thank everyone b4 she went off.. I can see her feeling more peaceful.. I confirm she received Joy Peace luv faithfulness patience goodness kindness self-control lastly gentleness..Gal verse 5:22-23..She had taken a fruit which contain 9 qualities..She benefit wor.. aH yo Praise God..wahahha

Friday, April 15, 2005

I did not mean to say that to u..maybe u are right is time for soul searching.. I did not know what I said to u really cause u to tk it so seriously.. I also very troubled right now.. What shld I do too.. Like u m.i.a..Actually u shld not feel that .. some pple hv such thought and u shld not let them tarnished u if ur conscious is clear.. Yes u shld seek help..yet frankly speaking..not everyone will help u but urself..

Not only u I am reliable on pple.. I shld learn to be more independent..there times when I needed so much help yet I cannot get it but hv to think of other alternatives..Likewise sometime even close frenz also can't help..U fell there no one to bring u up but urself..am I rite..When u cry there no one can be by ur side but u hv to stop ur tears and move on...This is life..I jux want u to know what happeing but did not meant to hurt u..
I feel that if I am ur frenz I shld tell u ..cause I want u to improve but not getting more hurt
If I keep quiet and treat it nth happen.. I rather u break this friendship with me..
I know right now u are deeply hurt.. but all I can say don't tk it too seriously to urself..
Ya.. I will leave u peace..wait till u are k liao..Then u tag me bah..or sms me..

Can we all remain forever childlike and hv a peaceful mind it is so hard.. I hate myself at times.. I am so feaking stress up.. Y must he hv such a high hope pin on me.. then I feel I will let him disappointed.. Even she got high hope on me yet I will piss her off.. The days are scaRy .. Horrible.. terrible... even having a meal together.. I can see all his white hair and that panda eyes.. he always say he will find a way out but he can't.. He is always not enough slp.. waiting waiting for miracle..

my heart is piercing with pain pain .. I don't know what to do.. I really don't know.. nowadays all I did..seem soo meaningless and useless..getting lazy and slag.. ah ya..

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Today arh... sooo haPpY I received a wonderful gift from Melvin..hahahaThank AloT..I like it alot.. I guess he could be very heart pain now..hahaha.. U all guess what that???I tell u....No la..Is our secret hahaha...

Today..3 ladies first time study at KFC..What a great enjoyable time.. 3 Brain are used wisely..so pls dun say women are bimbo hahaha...As usual life in class is so.. bored ..every morning when I am approaching assembly ground our class has the the fewer students.. We lack of boYs ..who look ah beng yet very kind - hearted..I am proud of them except our teacher..hahaha

I remember zi Jian is the fierce guy..then miss chong always help him up with his accounts.. I remembered he scared miserable mark for it..hahaha even miss low said that in class.. but now missing in action,cai fu my saviour for helping me when I am so blur that time I lock my own locker key inside the locker while chatting with sykin..then he used his bike to sent me hm..now must be alert..nv be blur no 1 will help me..Teo the ah beng .. who look like nicolas tae I think this is what zi jian cai fu thought of him.. all missing now the fun had gone.. then my cory dar also not with me.. haiz.. The fact is that our class gonna split up sooner.. haiz..dun noe who I will be with.. I dun want to go other class I rather stay on at IQD.. If really split I want to be with baby bra and Pastor Zheng and ah lim(my best companion when eating)we can eat within 10 min:p...sob sob..

I am going for BL interview again.. haiz.. why badminton is closed down.. further more the BL chairman is our class ca.. oh no...Tomorrow my banking CA2..Will I pass??I hv no mood to study..recently my account CA2 I did very badly.. Cory Dar I disappointed u and myself.. I hope my banking will score k..Pray for me..I very slag cause going to sch too dull without fun..jokes..and nonsense created by those gd classmates.. I am too relying on u all le.. I am so childish hor... :(

I wanna PraY for Pastor Zheng..he fallen very sick he sniff one coling stick for 3 days..this stubborn boy.. dun see doc..very stubborn..Ah yo I duel with him I lose so...abcd..bee gonna buck up.. Actually we hv a gap diff but ah lim said this gap alot liao..But I accept to my defeat..

Kk..Let praY heavenly DaddY .. May u bless my bro pastor zheng with speedy recovery&move forward in life&honour his parent, bless cai fu will find a gd sch to study and prove others that he can achieve well and excel,bless zi jian to find a better job rather than being trishaw rider for llife but get bk to studies track so to get a best cert ,bless Cory dar who always has so many doubts yet cannot hv a calm mind..Clear all the black clouds in her life..Bless teo with better health..get fit..Bless ning Jia.. My beloved famIly..now they are having exam..God bless them with wisdom..concentration and knowledge.. In Jesus name I pray amen..

Ah yo.. Shld I cut hair???so hot.. being girlish so... hahaha..Leon said that I hv alot of pimples le..I also agree..In the past having short hair cause me last trouble.. how??

I am soo Full I eaten my prata for dinner with my mUmmYsss ..Muack hahaha

K now must study my banking le.. Nite..MELVIN THANK :p

Monday, April 11, 2005

I feel that life are so bored in sch.. Cory DaR,TeO left..even CoOl man also Left.. No more jokes in sch..Melvin also seldom come sch.. EveN pastor Kam also see restless..

Let me tell u all a story... a girl had a dream to move on to poly from ite therefore she did not leave ite.. However she is very slag already..seem to has settled down there without any inspiration..even did not finished her homework..and usually finished it early in the morning at the canteen.. In the past she got a very best partner who will guide her and motivate her..But she left her too.. She are now without any close girl friend..furthermore 1 of her buddy is in a very unstable state too.. Must this girl move on ? or jux look back at the past memories???She is like in a dilemma state..Sometimes life are so blessed yet there times when things turned unpredictably.

What shld we advise this girl here?To stay on t o the past??Or ask her to move on??I feel that this girl will be a dumb women if she remain unmoved, am I rite??

I also realize there no ever lasting Luv in a relationship.. Sometimes Luv could be so hurting and scary... I see pple who get hurt yet dun want to move..Frankly I understand y they are not moving on is partly because of the deep wound in their heart.. That kind of experiences is very pain very pain... But there also a phrase that are so true"Time will actually heals everything"But it will heals unless u put it behind u and start to plan ur future.. But not saying that there no future after all... Life are fragile..mk it to the fullest and dun regret......

Friday, April 08, 2005

I attended G12 conference from 7 April to 8 April today.. The whole event gonna end on Sat..Overall I gonna go Kallang Indoor stadium from thur to Sun..I praise GOD for blessing me with gd health and determination to go thru this events with stronger faith and excitement to know Him.. In G12 conference is a very different service,there are pastors from 7 contingents.They came from country like Japan,korea,united Kingdom, columbia,TAiwan,Peru,Negeria,Indonesia,MAlaysia,India, South Africa, Australia etc..Praise Lord to brought them here.. Last Sat I prayed to GOD for his presence at the stadium.. Our prayer is answer..There pple with sickness being healed..Testimonials given by pple.. Pple experiences with God's grace..

Today I cried oout to God.. Father I thirst for ur blessing .. I feel so troubled.. The blessing I had it seem to be taken away.. My buddies in sch are getting fewer..One by one quitted..one by one left me.. I am so emotional today.. even 1 of them mention to me he might quit.. God what going on?Don't they worrid about their future.. I want to stop them yet.. Some might think I am nagging.. talking Old grandma story.. deeply in my heart I wanted to shout out "Can u all stop skipping lessons?""Stop running from lesson?"Don't u feel that u will disappoint ur parent?I might not be a perfectl student.. Yet I always remember 1 verse Honour ur parent.. I also feel discomfort today.. I think there are some misunderstanding.. but I pray that doubts could be cleared... I hv no problem with them yet there lacking of closeness.. and I jux think I prefer to be in my comfort zone yet I still tried to mix around...I hope they will understand my feelings..Sometime I might be too self-conscious cause I don't wanna hurt pple..being hurt is not a very nice feeling.. Gab I still think that "Love ur enemies as ur neighbour"this verse quoted from bible is not by saying only..but action.. do u ever know sometimes silence can destory communication with a person...U might say that ur character etc..nth can change u but remember 1 thing.. U mention to me.. In life .. studies might not be be impt yet nuture to become a gd man in life is the main goal"And furthermore was spoken by ur chinese teacher to u...

Nowadays,whenever there great events coming up there always obstacles to distract my plan to serve the Lord.. I need prayers from bro and sis..plssss..pray for me..sooo tired ..update further soon...:p

Saturday, April 02, 2005

TodaY I cannot turn up for the tribe meeting.. so I went for service.. Today service is great sermon on "Rekindling Our Spiritual Fire" 3 Aspects in life there are 1)Right perspective=Look forward and not backward of ur life..2)Right purpose =Directed with enthusiasm 3) Right passion=driven about God.Overall I can apply in my life is that.. In my pri sch days I am a very in chinese .. I can score ninty sth and sometime challenge pple to get the top yet there times I fall..But I shld not jux look at the victory side but move on to do well for other things.. I shld left the past behind me . I shld let the future to interpret the past..Pple are tired at times because we are the one who hold on to it or boredom.. Hey guys who are always so pessimistic..Times to move on..

Today I hv a very full dinner eating at suki sushi...No cake but alot of blessing from wai ling jie,Miss lee,yuan ling and hui li Jie..hahahaha..Praise God..My spiritual ma sick so nv come..I pray speedy recovery for her..Amen.. But I am already very contented..Today things go on very smoothly .. Our worship is sOOO nice "amazing Luv "my fav hahaha.. I sing the loudest.. wahahaha.. Our church moving to expo during dec.. The hall can contain 7000 pple.. that great!Family increasing rapidly..Till now my church has about 2000 but I believe in GOD grace.. Pre-believer may not believe but I believe when they experience the great luv he had given they will know how I feel le.. I need not defend Him..Yet let Him reveal himself ba..Yes going church every sat seem very troublesome but I think bk is jux every month u it tk out jux 4 days ..:pNow enjoying the song which I am ss touched when I first accepted christ.

It goes:
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nth I desire besides you.
My flesh and heart may fail
but GOD is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.Psalm 73:24-25 Translate to chinese more meaningful hahaha

Pastor Melvin dad struggle with illness yet he did not give up his life ..During this period this song acc him thru.. b4 he joined my heavenly daddy...I believe now he is happily with Him and hv alot of treasures :pPraise God.

Friday, April 01, 2005

TodaY is mY daY wor.. hahhaaha..19 yr old this yr b'date I hv alot of funs.. Today bra,CorY dar,zHeng,Teo & melvin and I went K box today..I am so touched by what they did..They Brought me a big Cake wor.. YummY .. Even though fewer and fewer frenz in sch already.. But I am so contented with jux only this beautiful moments.. so contented.. We sang alot of songs.. like my fav lodi JaY chou.. Melvin and I are fan of Jay cHou wor.. can sing non stop..Then corY dar is elva fans hahaha..Teo & bra are Potato.. no la more to english speaking guys.. we all sang from 3sth till 8pm..They are my very close frenz in sch ..but teO & cOry dar Leaving me soon.. FranKly speaKing TeO & CorY dar I can't bear yet I will still wish u all the best..I gOnna MISS My darling corY & Teo brO..Then I am left with the clsest Bra & zHeng/Pastor Kam hahaha..This 2 person is my fun maker frenz and bro. Wei must come sch daily to acc me k.. wait I eat alone in canteen or study alone very poor thing de.. And lastly both nv leave this sch but graduated together k.. Must study hard for the coming exam bah :pPastor Kam I believe God will bless u wisdom and concentration de, nv give up urself.. I will still say God hv his own plan for us de.. Entrust ur hope on him :pI am so troubled during that 1 week holiday looking at the pile of work load on my desk and family. I am so fed up really.. I feel extremely distracted no mood to do whatever things.. SUddenly I decided to entrust everything to him..then slowly manage my work.. In the end I praise Him I finish my work..cause times are mutiply ..hahhaa

I hv eaten my second cake. Previously is ning jia who brought me a chcocalate cake too.I am 19 this yr time passed very quickly.. This is the last phrase of my teens yr hahaha next yr approaching the twenty period..Getting older and older hopefully I wish to become more mature bah..But I pray for more reliable and trustworthy frenz to come along my path.. I want to hv the fullest in my daily life..same for my faith to grow stronger toward HIM. Cause life are really fragile, u will nv know what will happen next or tomorrow. I pity pple at sumatra, the earthquake caused alot of life loss..We may feel nth in singapore casuse we are not affected yet I would really continue to pray condolences abd blessing for the family's members.

Overall this yr b'date is quite fun for me..At first feeling pessimistic toward it yet I am really wrong cause I got grp of gd frenz that actually care for me ... I am a blessed girl.haahaha.. sound like very.... I wanna sent all my thanks to Ning Jia,Cory dar they all,Ite classmates, All my frenz who took the effort to sms me etc.. THANK a million mUack wahahaha.

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