Thursday, June 30, 2005

Today as usual attending sch ya.. while walking toward the bus stop.. I saw the bus coming soon.. so I quickly run toward it.. but I did not realize the pinky bag I am carry that sligh went off abit ..somehow I feel very sad.. very sad.. I like the bag alot and it meant alot to me but now no pt le.. Maybe life for me is also moving to the toughest time being more independent bah.. Let the past off is the sentence which I always deeply remembered..that the sentence maybe meant well but somehow I also feel sad about it ...Worst the black classic mickey alarm clock which I ordered end up not the newest yet another display item.. I maybe fussy bah but I rather hv a new 1 than a 1 which hv scratches..maybe that my expectation bah..then mk me waited for so long end up such quailty..mk me more sad.. why...I also dun understand...

Today somehow got hard time coping with costing gonna learnt to calculate the overtime pay etc.. jux can't remember much.. yesterday I slept alot.. but I still can't concentrate.. Today even acc I also struck at certain qn..then using thong siong paper as a reference teacher thought I am copying..but I got copy abit lo for the bal sheet part.. somehow rather quiet in class.. being abit cool le..sooner will end up to be dumb ..dun feel like talking much.. somehow no mood to engage any conversation but still got joker melvin around to mk the atmosphere not that tense up...

Listen to jay chou that initial d yi lu xiang.. somehow very very sad.. dun noe what the lyrics about yet.. the tune somehow connect with my feeling right now..Luckily did not listen to xiao zhu that dou yu songs or else gonna cried.. I feel like crying but not tears.. jux sad bah..:P

Monday, June 27, 2005

Today lesson start at 9am.. thank GOD jux enough time for me to slag abit.. now so sleepy wanna tk a short nap but I know if I really took I will really slp till tomolo..

I very still very lazy oh no.. gonna start study but jux can't concentrate.. Then in class we are been taught Partnership for advance accounting..then tax ar..always taxing thinggy..there tax everything want to tax.. troublesome hahaha..espec then theory part pple like kevin he almost fallen asleep.. hahaha me too but trying to bear with it..

Then life in sch somehow bored.. really bored le..the happy days are over.. then my thought now is like what xin ma said get out of this sch asap.. hopefully can graduate with a average result..not asking much..

This semester not much theory but basically calculation..today ar.. I did not attend track and field I told Mr koh I wan to be transferred to badminton my fav.. kekeke.then he said might start later.. then I also went to nanny hm to chill out then go hm.. aday jux over like this.. oh no.. tomolo start at 10am then end at 5pm.. gonna faint..must jia you..then this semester no more it lesson for me to stroll blog and internet sms hahaha.. oh no... oh no...

Friday, June 24, 2005

woW so Long nv post here liao.. anyway sch reopen everything seem bored.. I lost alot of cheerful and entertaining frenz.. I miss the days when they were around.. there alot of changing in me too.. This semester I joined bk bridge leader,track and field and maybe badminton my fav hahaha.. Now those sw teachers orgainising cheer leader as a cca.. Our class girls are joining but I am not.. Hahaha today I being so bad mouth saying jannah.. I said she can't be 1 cause hard to carry her up kekeke..

Life in sch really very tough now.. especially studing advance account.. really u hv to hv a very gd strong basic accounting bkground during ur yr1 if not really hard to progress on..Thank GOD there nisa who really helpful assisting me..yup she was also my asistant treasurer.. surprise rite I so blur teacher still appoint me as a treasurer..

Anyway today our topics are all initial D..thank GOD still got melvin who is a Jay fan then we can keep talking about Jay or else life is like boredom..

Todat Mariana told me there BL saying I look like Ah lian .. But I feel that my look is so decent then I nv dyed my hair still resemble a lian .. I really nth to say hahaha.. maybe that gd so no1 will bully me..hehehe..

Yup the sw Miss chong has transferred to other sch.. the tampines sw teacher came over to tk charge of us..fainting..no more pretty teacher to see liao

Today I met dear at zion church that bus stop there.. we almost woke up late today..hahahaha..Then she called my ma to change the meeting ..My ma very obedient .. she went in to my rm and ask me to wk up and say there changes in time.. I was like that awake by her.. I woke up at 9am ba..

Then we went nearby kopitiam to tk nasi lemak then guess what rain.. But dear and I pray that the rain will stop after my hair cut..THANK GOD his always a miracle to me.. really stop hahaha.. Praise GOD.. I remember during my tribe camp my tribe uncle mention that there a man challenge him saying if the rain on that day stop he will follow him to church guess what .. u all shld noe e ans.. The faith is strong he will defintely bless u .. for u knock the door and seek HIM and HE will always be there for u AMEN..

Ah ya.. somehow I hv met out with almost all my close frenz.. ah ya bad news a very stylist blog which I like to see going to put passwords..because of some irritating pple go and disturb her.. She melty very style and trendy.. I like her dressing so much.. I wanna go hk hahaha..I going to sign up a course on speaking cantonese..

I think going to migrate to hong kong to stay hahaha.. but the pple there way of lifestule I might not like it but I love the shopping paradise..I heard from zheng there not chili sauce.. oh no.. hard to survive keke

Then today I met dear I also get to know christ very smart boy from his look hehehe..He studying business it at nyp.. He can also become very trendy ba..then quite friendly too..

ah yo.. going to finish my costing hw then meeting dear at service going queensway to get a sport shoe.. asking for GOD blessing to get a cheap yet nice 1..so much to thank GOD today hahaha..yup also blessed me a very gd stylist then she also charge me 10 buck cheap and I am quite satisified with the hair style..can use wax to style gonna try it up..:p

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Yesh.. visiting my grandma..attending my uncle wedding..actually this uncle of mine scare of me..He very ab.. dun noe how to describe..but I attend the wedding for my grandma sake..

My second time with my ma going batam..finally my ma is getting out of this c'tries..yeah!!!
May GOD bless us journey mercy amen.. Pple keep us in prayer k..And update me on Bridge Leader stuffs once I get bk k.. wahahaha..

Today I got a very bad eveningmare.. I dreamt sth bad.. but thank GOD is jux a dream.. I dun noe izzit the stress that I had once I get bk from bl..some of them work so hard but can't get the realistic result they wanted..how come?Then they are so stress up.. I also abit affected but bee ar must move on ar.. rite??I think entering poly really a dream espec to business course.. hahaha A gpa pf 3.2 can only dream.. this is what kevin said as he heard from our former class advisor.. my goodness.. I need wisom to be wiser.. GOD help me.. help me..

Really going mad.. I still can't get to bed.. tomolo my ma sure nag because gonna give her a blur look hahahaha...GOD may u bless zheng family a safe trip to hk.. journey mercy amen..and I heard Cory dar is sick but God bless her a gd health and no stress in job but fav from pple amen..Lastly bless Miss lee a safe trip at shanghai and teo a pleasant tomolo hehehe amen
teo I wanna go k .. I want to sing everything out out out...I want to sing..I want to be super star in k box only hahahaha..

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

I won't talkI won't breathe

I won't move till you finally seeThat you belong with me
You might thinkI don't lookBut deep inside in the corner of my mindI'm attached to you

I'm weakIt's trueCause I'm afraid to know the answerDo you want me too?Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my lifeTo cross this lineTo the only thing that's true So I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waited
This is true
You don't knowWhat you doEvery time you walk into the roomI'm afraid to move

I'm weakIt's trueI'm just scared to know the endingDo you see me too?Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my lifeTo cross this lineTo the only thing that's trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try, anything to be with youAll my life I've waited
This is true

I know when I goI'll be on my way to youThe way that's true
I've waited all my lifeTo cross this line

To the only thing that's trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try, anything to be with youAll my life I've waited

This is true

This is what the boy had written in the diary for that girl...

Saddness or maybe not fated... they met out 1 day cause the girl was in trouble with her stuff.. The boy known and helped.. after that they had ice-cream together.. somehow the closeness is fading.. fading.. but there still abit of laughter..this is the ending or is not.. no1 will know..They are not avoiding each other but the boy started to has fear ba.. and somehow lacking confidence to face that girl..

The girl jux dun noe how to speak out.. yet wanna to say sth to him.. but somehow kai bu liao kou.. only can keep those happy days in her mind.. in her heart ba..hopefully the boy had a bright future.. and getting back with the girl who right now waiting for him..

Monday, June 13, 2005

I read this from a bk...author.. harvard ming hong ..

This boy is from a complete family.. but this girl came from a complex family.. this girl is full of hatred yet with strong holds... that kind of pains in her is so deep .. I can feel that the wound jux need alot of time to heals.. and her determination to release..can she.. let carry on..The trials she went thru and the up and down in her life..Thank GOD she had a strong faith ..

This boy being a very close frenz from her ever since studying at this college.. they are some how stranger at the start.. slow frenz.. buddy.. then the girl jux being so egoistic..love throwing tantrum.. can talk so loud.. somehow at times very rude..don't know whether this pro izzit due to the environment she live..

The girl from the pic look norm yet got a nice smiles ba.. soon the boy has affection toward her.. maybe the times hv cause it .. or been together too often or her bad girl attitude attracted him?

Unfortunately the boy like theives hahaha secretly tc of her , guide her, dream, acting norm,but dare not tell her his feelings.. the girl however know nth..he did a diary with memories and dreams...

Times past.. graduation time.. they gonna graduate from that college this time gonna separate le.. very fast yet the time jux can't stop there..everytime happy moments jux last for that period of time..that moment..as a memories ba..

Wow I like fantasizing...

There a graduation party held at this party.. this could be the last meeting le.. very vey sad.. guess what.. the boy wear a suite and very surprising he like having a better complexion hahahha don't know whether izzit the nite b4 he had put 2 chamomile tea bag?The the girl dress more feminine a black dress with laces etc surrounding it.. and look radiance..maybe usesk2 hahaha..

then the concert start.. the food jux spread across a long table.. somehow I read .. the food taste delciious..my goodness.. saliva.. hahaha

At the dancing floor.. the guy fianlly grab the cahnce to dance with the dream ger.. finally .. the feeling shld be great...

then he slowly whisper to her ears.. I ... actually...actually.. suddenly the light went off..

story to be continue.... ....

Thursday, June 09, 2005

arghhh.. I can't stand my ma.. what she want.. sometime she really think too much.. but I know she worrid haiz.. going camp tomolo.. somehow not prepare..Miss lee sms me and mention there a need to bring alot clothing cause of wet games etc bah..sound quite fun..

Sometime being simple is gd need not think so much... when u like smomeone .. the feeling produce is more true more real.. but things nv last... life is like up and down.. there always changes changes.. no1 will understand.. everything seem meaningless when u are feeling down upset.. all u want is care concern love.. that human ..Pple want achievement fame.. almost everything..

But there slience behind the scene.. there movement that will nv be known.. but jux working quietly for the person sake.. somehow a bit foolish yet quite sweet..but somehow because of certain circumstances there nv a ending.. There soo complex.. soo complicated.. soo much to think to hope to wish... argh..

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

I hv recover from sickness..yeaH hurraY.. so sick during the 2 days.. I nv eat well nor slp well..but who cares.. I hv recover.. Ma thank for being so nice to acc me for lunch I almost starve at hm hehehe..so sWeet of u.. muack..

Too bad nanny can't join us.. I miss the fun we usually hv .. once I saw ma I jux can't stop talking.. we ate at prata hm but I took white mee goreng not spicy 1 cause jux recovered..
Then we went to china town walk around get sth for my coming camp.. like shampoo etc.. gonna stock up yup also conditioner or else zheng will say my hair like grass :Panyway I will not using com for 3 days but quite excited.. let pray GOD will mould me into a better person ..amen..

Life now is really extremely relax .. even though can't buy alot of things but shop around still quite nice.. jux feel so contented.. with my girlfriends ..

Everyone is jux growing up and become more mature le ba.. concepts and ideas change.. Ma u are more humorous .. I feel that talking to u is soo fun then before & very relax to talk things out..Prasing u deeply from the bottom of my heart.. hehehe..

I gonna pack my clothes etc by tomolo..I hope by sun everything will end early so I can attend meiying concert.. at esplanade at 3pm.. Ning Jia must show support.. I feel soo guilty for not turning up for the previous concert at the barker road.. I miss the days in band..even though quite tough but very memorable.. I still remember the flute fingering.. jux hope can touch the instrument once again or performance for concert.. wanna join sws youth but no $$ to buy that piece of metal hahaha.. I am not talented but jux passion ba.. sometime feeling stress or unhappy but playing a tune out can actually can be very smoothing de..My fav tune is "First Love""Can u celebrate"I remember I love 1 solo I forgotten which 1.. at first dare not play everytime insist chuan to play with me.. so funny then I will somehow feel nervous..

We also met up with rachel so nice of her buying dex a bad.. quite nice for his coming birthday.. dex ar.. going older must behave urself and study hard.. I dun noe whether he know I got blog or not hehehe.. God bless u too..may u do well for ur n'level..

Ah yooyoo.. so excited for tribe camp.. first time meeting a big family.. Will I hv a bed to slp on .. will my stupid flu bk?ah ya.. soooo worry..

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

I hv not been out for 2 dats le.. almost rot at hm.. because of the sickness I feel so weak.Even when I am able to lioter out I might feel so tired and restless so I rather stayed at hm..Thank GOD i keep praying for healing.. now approaching recovery..Life still very peaceful somehow bk to my comfort zone.. without much thoughts and I manage to clean my room today.. slightly better than the previous time..

I think days past on very quickly going tribe camp soon.. I jux hoping everything will be fine.. then I better not to fall sick during the camp after this suffering.. I believe my ma will pack alot of things in my bag.. hahaha seem like going abroad.I hope I am able to plan out my time line soon.. gonna pray..

Today seem quite refresh.. not so tired but jux restless.. :)

Now feeling slightly better.. after I visited doc..wow this is the very first time so sick.. I really cannot take it even sneeze till some blood out.. very disgusting.. Then I went to see doctor myself.. the doctor seem to pity me like this..during the consultation keep asking me questions ..like do u hv sensitive nose.. then u needed what medicine.. then u shld tk this tk that.. ah yo.. whenever I came with my ma rite.. he won't ask so much unfortunately yesterday my ma went to my aunt hm to help up sth..

After the medicine I can jux slp and slp like really hardly wk up unless needed to go toilet..now already 2.30am I am quite awake could be the medicine effect had over ba..

Then now abit hungry ..ah yo soo late where to find food.. my house actually in the past alot of biscuits etc all gone very fast.. cause of my bro.. my goodness.. nth left sometime pple wanna on diet can come my hm stay hahahha:P

Monday, June 06, 2005

Wow ..my throat very painful.. yesterday night I even took medicine .. I thought everything will be k but after a few hours the pain is bk then the whole throat so dry..

Even though I am sick.. but I am happy for the past 2 days.. I spent tiime with zheng and gab .. very fun .. we played monopoly yesterday.. First round I am the riches girl.. but later on we mk the game more exciting by using 3 dices.. the second round there no winner but I am obviously at the verge of losing..this 2 la very bad wanna allies to mk me lose .. if I am not so sick I sure argue hahahaha.. luckily yesterday I opened my golden mouth to tell gab I am not feeling well or else no panadol for me le.. THANK GOD.. his house left 1 tablet or else I gonna suffer.. Before going to their hm I went to the nearby to donate blood hehehe.. I really very stubborn,after the previous experience I still insist.. this time better did not ..but giddy..the fact in future I cannot donate le.. I have very fine vein then plumping of blood is very slow comparre to other pple.But I will console myself by saying I am unique ba.. hehehe there nth I can do or enlarge the vein..

Got more exciting incident is when we ate durain or somehow a durian paradise at 1 void deck with zheng and gab..Is zheng treaty..soo nice of him..very fun .. I nv get to eat durian for so long.. Gab and I eat till the seed had nth left nor a bit of durian but zheng nv able to eat it clean..hahaha so we keep teasing him..worst when he opened the durian his finger touch the flesh so that part belong to him .. :P

Friday, June 03, 2005

Today I had enough of slp bah.. I keep sleeping from morning to night .. however there interval..like awake awhile then slp again.. because the flu tablet I had took ba.. Ya.. my health is tarnished because of this sickness.. really sick of it.. dun noe can survive thru my tribe camp?Sometime My ma will nag y life sooo unfair.. pple can don't sleep that much but the following day still so energetic but why can't we?My health is like my ma..then she will nag again saying ah yo u ar.. grow older will suffer .. etc.. If I happen to heed such comments.. living pessimistic..what my life gonna be?Life is in our hand..

Yup.. I miss a girl .. a very close friend of mine.. but we lost contact.. really lost ever since she left me.. I heard she called .. but the no is private.. so I did not notice.. she a very close frenz & a repectable sista with me.. Right now I will say sorry to u.. really sorry.. not I don't want to ans..actually I am not feeling well too..maybe u called I am asleep at my ma rm .. :)

I don't know what happen to ur household but I heard is very bad condition.. U may said y I nv contact u for that event.. not I dun wan to I hv to arrange other things.So I ask the person to pass message to u. the person also mention u miss me badly.. thank for that I am very contented to hear that.. "THANK U"so thankful to know u. Now life is at the hardest turning pt right .. I remembered u always tell me be independent and strong-willed to face it. Let not be too stress about it.. really I dun noe y this holiday had made me grow really grow .. things happening daily.. But I seldom share.. I also dun noe who to share with but I really share with GOD.. u might say I very GODLy girl etc.. sometime I am so vex but really I pray to him...he being very good to me I know he is always listening.. :)I would like to say sometime pple will change due to the living environment.. u remember u wanna be missing in action to do some reflection?But hv u really did it during that period of times?U lost the things due to what circumstances?Is careless right?I am not reprimand u but that the fact.. U are lucky that at first it was found but later on..what had u done?again losing it?

I understand how u feel.. I also lost thing before.. this teach u and me a lesson.We hav eto learn to tk care the things with care.. Let it go bah.. I believe after sometime u will feel better de:)Trust me.. Yup...How life ? how ur studies?I heard u working soon right.. working tediously..
But I will continue to keep u in prayer.. Yup .. tell the person I am not really classfied as in busy category..but I am like u all there times I got to do some things because I am human .. all hv things happening daily every now and then..but frankly speaking there times we can break down too.. Anyway gonna learn to manage times..

I heard that u are always busy busy busy.. But I know there times u will really hv spare times and wanted some rest? Don't u?Maybe u got alot of things to shoot me saying y I did not personally come to approach u about the event etc but I hope that does not affect our friendship..because I think that a small matter.. :)I might not be around with u but I believe when u had problem I will tried my best to help.. But frankly speaking .. I had learnt not to interfere so much .. u might be grateful to me but for the other might think i am messing up the whole problem.. But if u willing to seek advice from me I always welcome u.. really.. I even can lend u my listening ears.. But learing to persevere is the path to maturity and building ur character.. I trust that u are on the right track.. so carry on.. remember I mention that I would like learn sth from u .. that perserve..

I don't compare ur hm pro with mine.. cause diff house hold got diff pro.. not pt argue or compare.. u might in financial crisis but I believe there things u can cut down or tried to cut down some unnecessary expenses de.. Think positively financial crisis not the end of the world.. Don't let money be ur GOD .. really.. this crisis will be over bear with it.. and also help u to learn the importance of saving..

Chinese will say what first bitter then the end sweet such theory.. Jia you.. do the best and fullest in ur life..Learn to forgive and forget.. yes he left the hm after he had accumulated those .. maybe he has his reason.. Don't break down .. friends and ur loves 1 will worry de.. This is all I can say to u :)anything then sms me bah...I am quite worry of u too.. so dun disappoint me :)

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Today.. I spenT whole day at home..wanna pack those unwanted books but whenI look at it is like piles and piles.. sooo moody to pack.. early in the morning having bad flu but..I still tried to teach my bro geography.. I almost lost contact with this sub for quite a long time.. I remembered whenever I teach my bro I will throw my temper if he cannot get it.. but today everything goes on smoothly hahaha.. then I ask him he understand or not..he said yes,yes,yes..juz like me .. whenever pple teach me sth I will say yes yes yes but deep inside me is no no no..hahahha..think about it quite funny..

On 1 June I met zheng for teeth cleaning.. hey whoever got ntuc cards espec Gold got discount wor.. I think over there the price still quite reasonable.. I called health promotion board before the students priced only be given to student below 18..we ar.. hehehe old lo..zheng even more.. haha..k.. then we went in and wait in the end zheng went in first..at first he went in normally,when everything done.. he covered his mouth with pain hahaha.. poor boy.. whoever know him should know why.. I look at his result mk me more fear and pray more.. I went in everything seem k then thank GOD my teeth considered health wor.. but still must tk gd care cause if decay when old already no eating of meat and have to put on fake teeth.. I remembered 1 incident I forgotten who .. he bitting hard to consume a piece of normal meat then accidentally swallow 1 fake teeth.. very disgusting bah.. yuck..

Then went ah zheng house tk new game.. the purpose of this game is to disturb the neighbour with several tricks to score and move on to next level..I give 4/5..then his ma cooked pork chop..can say taste of it very nice.. but this lazy man said he eat till sianz..I guess he ate for 20 yrs le.. but I believe if he entered n.s he surely missed his ma food.. Yup I thought of it.. poor Ken going in soon.. everyday maple c to await for the day to come.. poor ah ken..gonna miss him..this funnY joker.. wahaha..Ning Jia tk note wor.. he going in on 14 June.. bid farewell.Then went city hall to meet xin ma angie dear and rachel , then nanny came later.. everyone is busy but still tried to meet out.. As times pass I believe everyone will get busier .. I heard rachel said she had to wk up 5am to reach alexandra for attachment etc.. life sounded tough but this future nurse has the passion..when anyone hv passion to do anything she will mk it de.. jia you.. I thought of become stewardness this is part of my ambition.. I got alot of ambition in the past like lawyer,nurse,business women etc hahaha..nurse cannot mk it le.. I saw the blood I faint before attending to the patient.. lawyer ar.. I can only go china be 1 .. more english like rojak .. chinese.I mention being stewardness to my god bro he said got passion I will tried several ways to achieve.. I really love travelling.. I confirm I cannot stay in s'pore for too long.. I almost finished shopping all places..hahaha..but he added on I cannot hv bf or else the poor guy will have to wait.Then he said that every times hv to fly here and there.. I think bk my height can mk it.. but I heard not easy to get in.. but see how..I entrust my future in HIS hand but I hv to work for it too..

Still not yet retreive my o'level cert..dear ar.. hurry up sms me.. going tribe camp soon le.. he.. i will go nus see got pretty girl or guys no la..go there to camp and worship God.. with my tribe..and experience God presence.. may my faith grow stronger bah..

Ah yo on the 31 I think got a old man lived blk310 I guess ma said.. he jumped from 5 floor and died.. I heard blood splashed all over the floor.. I dun even there to see.. My ma keep saying life how hard or bad nv commit sucide.. counted as sins bah if commited..then zheng told me that such body will be hand cuff.. But I pity this old man ..haiz.. my ma said he died because he had sickness and don't want to give anymore burden to the family.However I feel he brought more saddness to the family.. Today my ma heard the family crying very loudly at the sucide place.. the place quite near my hm.. ah yo .. at night I also dun dare to walk there.. my ma said that the spirit still there unless the priests go there to mumble or pray sth so the spirit will leave that area..

I pray that the old uncle will go heaven join heavenly father and may the family with peace..
Think bk the previous semester I am so stress up and keep thinking negative .. now I realize how precious a life is... no matter how poor or bad the living condition is .. must not give up.. must move on..:)

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